pushback, pushed back on your efforts.
you see, they tell you how when you walk the path of most authenticity, of what the universe asks of you, that you will be supported. things will click into place, you meet the right people, the cosmic channels align and things, just. work. out.
and this is true. i have experienced this over and over again.
but they rarely tell you about pushback, because it's a bit of a downer really.
along with all that good stuff falling into place, there is also the opposite.
knowing about it can help you understand what's going on. i know that even i have been taken unawares on many occassions.
recently, i moved into this enormous capacity for compassion, and i was shown a vision for empowering others, and well, i felt gooooood. it felt riiiiight. so when there was pushback, it was kinda confusing, you know?
you can work on your part in things, we all self-sabotage to some degree.
you can rant and rave - but i'm really a good person! or, but i'm walking my path!
you can shake your fists at the universe, at others, which is all fine. anger is a worthy emotion, otherwise we would take repeated slaps and injustices. there are martyrs and there are revolutionaries.
but pushback isn't there to befriend you. it isn't there to rationalise, be logical, reasonable, kind, understanding, or nice. it isn't there to hear you. you can throw love at it, kindness and empathy. you can throw patience at it, time, effort, work. no good.
it's there because you dared to do something audacious.
you decided and acted upon your Truth. you're walking your path. you were *shock horror*, courageous enough to DO something about and for the world. to put your money where your mouth is. and what you are doing will change the world, even in a small way.
you're creating art, you're writing your book, you start a business, you start a charity, you gather a circle, you head a campaign.
and these are not just hobbies, but gifts to others. energetically charged!
and guaranteed, someone will be jealous, you will be doubted, you'll be asked to be more than human, you'll be critised, you'll be laughed at, someone will be bitter, you'll lose a 'friend'. your reputation, your integrity, the real you, will all come into the firing line.
they'll want to hear love and kindness in only one melody. but there are mother theresa's and there are martin luther king's - you won't, and can't, suit everyone.
everyone who is that audacious experiences pushback. gandhi, princess diana, the guy down the road who started the soup kitchen. they all send out waves of love into the world, but they are also strong and know how to use bounderies. they're filled with kindness but aren't punching bags. they get angry, outraged even, and aren't afraid to step on toes. that kind of audacity, to live your truth and be fully human, makes ripples and scares others. and where there's fear there's hatred.
why does anyone carry on? why should you carry on?
because the support from the universe is greater, because the rewards are greater.
because anything less is a life half lived.