Wednesday, August 18

goodbye missus

there is never a time that i'm not thankful for following my intuition. but there are times that i am especially thankful that i did.

i blogged recently about a stray dog that adopted us. that as a large and dominant dog who appeared to have had little to no affection, we were concerned about safety around the girlchild. but i went with my gut and kept her.


and she turned out to be calm, affectionate, and taking little effort to care for. happy to have found a pack, she forever shadowed us, it was difficult to take an outdoor photo without her in it. and she had accepted me as her pack leader.


she was content to roam alone around the village if we left to visit town. the perfect dog for us. no fuss, calm. a good dog.


and then she got a skin disease. actually had had it all along but it progressively got worse. the vet this evening diagnosed it as untreatable and potentially dangerous to us. her liver was failing. he put her down. and like the compassionate vets they tend to be here, he sedated her first so that she felt nothing.

i cried and cried. i accept death, but domesticated animals, pets, break my heart, because we have created them and then abandon them. they are dependant on us.

i hate the universe for bringing animals into my care that die. this is the 3rd in 2 years. it's so hard on me.
i love the universe in it's infinite wisdom for bringing animals to someone that will give them lots of love for their last days.

24 comments:

  1. It is clear that she felt much love in your "pack." I'm so sorry for your loss. She was a beauty.

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  2. I am sorry for the loss of this beautiful creature Mon. Hugs to you and your family.

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  3. So sorry to hear this. Hugs to you and your family.

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  4. Oh yes...the loss of pets is indeed heartbreaking - and for all the reasons you shared. Sending hugs and love. I'm so sorry for your lose. -Debbie

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  5. Sometimes it is the quality of life and love that far outweighs the quantity however that never dulls the pain of their loss, I know how you feel' Just think of the love you gave her that she had previous been bereft and know that you gave her a lovely home and life. x

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  6. Oh, I'm so very sorry for your loss. That is painful. What a beautiful dog.

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  7. I'm so sorry. That last part of your post made my heart swell and the tears come. So beautiful that you were there for her, and my heart goes out to you in your loss.

    Love,
    Stacy

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  8. Oh Mon, I'm so very sorry. That is terribly hard. Missus sounds like such a beautiful soul, and she was so fortunate to have spent her last days with you. ((hugs))

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  9. oh Mon....oh my goodness. (((((hugs))))

    I know it's difficult now -- but you gave her the gift of your love and the gift of a gentle death. This could be why she chose you....as horribly as that is to accept now.

    My heart is breaking for you.

    She is such a beautiful dog....and she was loved. In the end, she was loved. And that counts for an awful lot.

    bless you Dear Heart...for opening yourself to this wandering soul...and to all those before her, and the ones that may come after.

    xoxox

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  10. she was lucky to find you all when she needed you..wonderful that she belonged and felt that special love before she passed.. sending hugs...

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  11. So sorry to hear this Mon. Hugs to you and your family

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  12. I am so sorry about this :-( It's very sad ... and very beautiful also. How lucky she was to have found her pack, and such love, in her final days. Hugs and blessings to you all.

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  13. So sorry to read this. Hugs and hot chocolate clearly called for.

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  14. so sorry to hear of your loss. I remember your post about how she had become a member of your family, and it must be very hard to have her taken from you so soon. At least you have the comfort that her last days were happy, secure, and that she was well fed, cared for and looked after, and that her passing was managed and she is now free from suffering, although I'm sure it's probably a hollow comfort at the moment. Sending much love to you all. x

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  15. those eyes say it all... glad this sweet creature found you...i hope the beauty outweighs the pain of this experience soon.

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  16. ~my heart is with you...sending healing blessings to wash away your pain and saddness...soothing your mind and easing your thoughts...reguardless animal or person...saying till the next time is never an easy thing to do in life...one we never get used to...be in your moment...shed your tears and let time heal...i am ever so sorry...much l♥ve and light upon you and yours always and blessings aplenty~

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  17. Aw. I'm so sorry :( saying goodbye to animals is always the hardest. You were so nice to take her in. You have a good heart.

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  18. I'm so sorry. I just had a meltdown the other day about my dog who was put down TEN YEARS AGO. The pain never goes away.

    I grew up with dogs and goats for most of my life. Still remember a little goat I bottle-fed from birth who was born with numerous defects, and who died at about 4 months of age, after I spent hours with him every single day of his life.

    There is nothing like that connection between human and animal, and nothing like the pain of the loss when they die.

    Blessings to you in this difficult time.

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  19. monica-thank you so much for coming by the Coyote. i'm so sorry to hear about your friend. i just put my girl down in november, also a stray who saw me through grief, birth, protected my children and broke my heart when she had to go. such loving thoughts to you. she is beautiful...

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  20. Oh, gosh, so hard. I understand. Really. I lost both of my dogs ... both were hit by cars. I don't think I've recovered yet, and I even have a hard time being terribly affectionate with Jeremy's dog. They're so vulnerable, so precious, and when they die, it just doesn't feel right ... I think because they really are like children and so dependent on us.

    You knew love and Missus knew love. Like Sarah said, this is beautiful but painful.

    I really am so sorry for your loss.

    much love.

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  21. I'm so sorry.
    I can see her beautiful spirit in her picture.
    We had a little dog Sunny who only stayed with us two years. I still believe she was "given" to us and us to her just when we needed one another.
    You gave your lovely dog the knowledge of a loving family. There is know better gift than that.

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  22. I'm so sorry. Losing a pet is never easy.
    Hugs and light to you.
    xo

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