We're so engaged in doing things to achieve purposes of outer value that we forget that the inner value,
the rapture that is associated with being alive,
is what it's all about.
i seem to be bumping into several blogs talking about the value of a creative life. about the anxiety, embarassment, even out right fear, of owning labels such as writer, artist, photographer..... surely someone will catch me as a fraud...
it seems safer to say, i like to write, i write a few poems, i take photographs, i paint.....
because somehow we've equated these labels as Jobs, and jobs are about producing something where other people benefit.
those words aren't job titles, they're labels for something a person does.
we believe that we need to be legitimised by a sale perhaps, or will a review in a respected magazine do?
we look for external validation. as women, we do that so much already.
we've lost respect for the softness of process. and in losing that, i believe that we've lost respect for the feminine. giving it up for the, supposedly, superiority of masculine achievement. hard results.
i've been shocked when anyone has referred to me as an artist. the first time it happened it came from a reader at my other blog. from someone who didn't know any better - having no idea that this was all new for me, that i was re-learning creativity, the right to creativity. they said it with surety, a statement that suggested obviously you're an artist.
what a shock to be shown a mirror so early in the morning!
and what value does creativity have anyway? how can i write when the partner works to pay the bills?
we forget it's all a choice, for everyone.
i'm still wobbly in my artistic shoes. it feels fragile. impossibly high stilettos.
but i say it now... because almost every day i paint or make art in some way..... i dream of colours and forms and brush marks.... i daydream of composition and subjects.
i do art... i think art... therefore i am an artist.
and... there is value in being the most raw me.
see Mon, you said it, and you didn't fall.
p.s, amy is doing a lovely giveaway at cypress sun.