Do you prefer the good or the bad first? Let's go for the bad, I like to end on a positive note.
We have had severe leaks in the new house. Severe and mind-boggling. Husband has been trying to sort it out on and off for months, getting to it partly dictated by the weather. There was an existing barn, which we converted and put a flat roof on, that we built our new house against. It leaks at the join. Or so we thought...
So thinking it's the joint, all the focus has been on that. Long and dull story short, after sealing and working on the flat roof the leak remained. Many hours and gallons of water, from our well, were used to experiment. It seems the problem is the inferior mortar used to point the main house. So it's coming in through the wall! Fortunately, Husband sealed the walls using two different sealants on alternate walls, so it looks like only two ends pose a problem. All our hopes are now pinned on further sealant solving the problem.
It has depressed Husband and has set us back on our moving in date. You see, we have had leak and mold issues in this apartment. The new house was all about the insulation etc etc, to make it mold proof. And we have water just coming right on in soaking the walls. Horrible.
I started to go through our boxes here to prepare to move some to the new place soon, where it's drier. We found mold all over the place. I had to throw away a couple of books, few clothes, and my photography major work from university. Heartbreaking. But it's just stuff, right? sigh
So.... onto the good.
There has been a fire in the making over the last year or two. Those of you who've been here awhile know that I have been slowly, occassionally painfully, often amusingly, re-finding my creative self.
Through navel-gazing, soul exploring, and dialogue with wonderful friends, I have emerged and shifted. I took the last few days (during the exploratory dark moon) to sit with all I've come to realise and see what came of it.
What's come of it is nothing short of transformational. Probably won't look like much to the outside world, but inside, I've broken free.
Essentially, it means I'm going to be more creative, actively so. I have, and will continue to, deal with a lot of Fears connected to my creativity. And I'm going to put that into my work as well. But I'll be posting all about it in detail soon because I want to, and because the process and discoveries might help someone else.
It's time that little girl who was told to colour inside the lines, the woman who struggles with what is of 'value', and the mind dominated by the left, be pulled out from under the rubble.
And you know I've been all about community too, so I'll love for you to take this journey along side me, with your own paints and pens. If you can't draw, haven't touched paints since early school, or get a rash at the thought of 'doing art', then you're in good company. If you're brave and ready...