Hello lovely people, thank you so much for your words and your emails. I won't be leaving HM, it has too much sentiment for me, and as I said in my last post, I don't want to make a rash decision.
Turtle Oak - I understand that irrational violence. I think that any blog that is quite focused on certain topics, has the potential to feel stifling. Then, even the colour scheme or name can feel like a weight. I think only bloggers whose blogs are much more than just a blog, understand this. For me, it has been a lifeline, as a mother, as an expat in a non-English-speaking country who was housebound for many months, as a creative', and as a person desiring regular worthwhile dialogue. And that's why I thanked you all, because that's what you gave me.
I have been playing with other blogs for some time, trying to find an outlet for non-mothering topics. And I keep closing them down.
The conflict was that HM was my main blog, and I kept the other blogs focused on one or two topics. Whereas now, after this corner I've turned, I know I need to make another blog the main one, or at least have it on equal standing.
I've decided to keep Holistic Mama open. I know that I still want to write the Wildflower's developmental records and occassional daily goings on, and recipes, and home stuff, and crochet, and child-media-culture issues that boil my blood, etc, etc. And obviously there will be mama challenges that I'll want your opinions/advice/support on. I mean, toilet learning is just around the corner, yikes.
I will likely import all my children's book reviews here too. See, she tells herself, still so much to share!
And as an update, I wanted to share that the Wildflower is done with the worst of her teething (just those far back ones to come at a later date) and she is SOOOOO much happier. And thus mama is no longer tearing her hair out. Lots of fun and giggles now amongst the minor challenges. And who else cares and appreciates the wonderfulness of that but you guys?
So where was I? oh yes, keeping HM...... but I also want, no need, to write and chat about art, culture, poetry-writing, dark stuff of the psyche, and other weird goings on in my head, that just don't sit well here. By all means come to my new home if that sounds like your thing. Email me.
Holistic Mama sticks around, for the friends I've made, for the amazing community that's found a gathering place here, and for this walking talking heart of mine...